New glasses

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No matter how hard I try

I still feel this insurmountable amount loneliness. I wouldn’t say that is just part of my depression, but I’ve been feeling this way my entire life. I can be in a room full of people and still feel alone. Maybe I’m just meant to walk this world alone. I want to feel like this life is a gift, but what kind of gift makes you feel like crap all the time? I spend most of my time hiding the way I truly feel. I feel like I am living a dishonest life.

My weight

I lost 4 more pounds, which puts me around 116 lb. I went to the Erie rib Fest, so I probably gained those 4 pounds back, but I’m not going to beat myself up about it. I feel like I slim down a lot and one binge day does not define me as a failure.