I love American Ninja Warrior and watching every season. I’ve been watching American Ninja Warrior, I feel like I can complete any exercise Stephanie throws at me.
I want to get t-shirts made up next week and I want to submit my book to bookbaby publishing, so I can get it professionally edited and maybe a book cover done. Maybe they can help me with a marketing strategy. I would like to get some t-shirts made for gimphack.
Do you like the red?
I still feel this insurmountable amount loneliness. I wouldn’t say that is just part of my depression, but I’ve been feeling this way my entire life. I can be in a room full of people and still feel alone. Maybe I’m just meant to walk this world alone. I want to feel like this life is a gift, but what kind of gift makes you feel like crap all the time? I spend most of my time hiding the way I truly feel. I feel like I am living a dishonest life.
Stephanie killed me in the best possible way. Tried battle ropes for the first time. I did not lift them very high, but the fact that I was able to with them at all was amazing.
I lost 4 more pounds, which puts me around 116 lb. I went to the Erie rib Fest, so I probably gained those 4 pounds back, but I’m not going to beat myself up about it. I feel like I slim down a lot and one binge day does not define me as a failure.