My doctor says she’s still concern about my weight. She said that I probably could get off of some of the medications that I take if only I would lose some weight. I know what I have to do I just can’t make myself motivated enough to care. To be honest, sometimes the thought of adding 30 to 40 more years to my life is scary to me because that is there is a 40 years pain. Who in the right mind would put themselves through that on purpose? I’m not suicidal, I will live as long as God wants me to, but to purposely and 30 to 40 more years to my life sounds crazy to me. I wish I could find how reasons see you ignite that’s the spark for the life I had once.