My doctor visit

My doctor says she’s still concern about my weight. She said that I probably could get off of some of the medications that I take if only I would lose some weight. I know what I have to do I just can’t make myself motivated enough to care. To be honest, sometimes the thought of adding 30 to 40 more years to my life is scary to me because that is there is a 40 years pain. Who in the right mind would put themselves through that on purpose? I’m not suicidal, I will live as long as God wants me to, but to purposely and 30 to 40 more years to my life sounds crazy to me. I wish I could find how reasons see you ignite that’s the spark for the  life I had once.

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I was disappointed in myself last week

I ate five huge slices of pepperoni pizza and it was so greasy and delicious. I love this while I was doing it, But I hated myself afterwards.

I’m telling you this because we all have days where we fall off the wagon so To speak. We just got to get back on and keep going, because when it comes to your health quitting is not an option.

My weight

I lost 4 more pounds, which puts me around 116 lb. I went to the Erie rib Fest, so I probably gained those 4 pounds back, but I’m not going to beat myself up about it. I feel like I slim down a lot and one binge day does not define me as a failure.

My dessert alternative

Tonight I’m a cherry strawberry and spinach with some honey. Added some water with ice and Ninja blender. It kind of came out with the consistency of sorbet, it was delicious. I made a new discovery flavored protein powder, I might be the only person that didn’t know about this product. Tomorrow I am sending someone to the store for peanut butter protein powder to add to my homemade concoctions.

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My dessert alternative

Tonight I’m a cherry strawberry and spinach with some honey. Added some water with ice and Ninja blender. It kind of came out with the consistency of sorbet, it was delicious. I made a new discovery flavored protein powder, I might be the only person that didn’t know about this product. Tomorrow I am sending someone to the store for peanut butter protein powder to add to my homemade concoctions.

I was doing so good until now

I was doing so good about not drinking any Pepsi, but Sunday I had one and today I had two. This soda habit is a tough one to quit. I think the girl who is always drinking Pepsi is sort of became a part of my identity over the years. I’m not giving up though, I’m going to try to kick this habit once and for all.