What are you thankful for? I am thankful that my depression was lifted for Two whole days.
Well I have done something I never thought I would do, I bought me an iPhone. I got to say I like that you could take a car without having to unlock your phone. I love that you can store your passwords. The fingerprint scanner is difficult at times, but it’s nice when I can get it to work.
Gone are the days of expensive environmental control units. Thanks to Amazon Echo, I can now control my lamp with the sound of my voice. You can buy smart plugs that turn your dumb appliances into smart appliances that can communicate with Alexa. What I mean is you can take a standard Appliance and buy a smart plug and now your Appliance can now communicate with Alexa. The instructions for a little complicated, but it was easier once I started to fiddle around with the app myself. YouTube was valuable for setting up Alexa. I plan to get more smart plugs so I can control my appliances via Alexa. Now I can turn on lights in my apartment without asking for help. My next piece will be automatic curtains. The small things insignificant to an able-bodied person, but you’re person with a disability the small things are major victories.
I can now control my living room lamp thanks to Alexa and a smart plug. I am hoping to get automatic curtains that I can pair with Alexa. Thanks to smart plugs being inexpensive I can turn my standard appliances into smart appliances. I can now make crystal clear hand free calls with Amazon’s Echo.
I finally got my wifi back, but I’m still struggling to come up with content for this blog.
I lost 4 more pounds, which puts me around 116 lb. I went to the Erie rib Fest, so I probably gained those 4 pounds back, but I’m not going to beat myself up about it. I feel like I slim down a lot and one binge day does not define me as a failure.
I have to admit that they have been times in my life where the emotional pain was as bad as the physical pain. sometimes I feel totally isolated from the rest of Society, because of my disability. I mean they have been times in my life where I was not invited to something, because it would be too complicated to get me there or have me there. who’s to say this physical pain is more valid than emotional pain? what kind of measurements can we use to measure someone’s pain? on the flip side some emotional pain is only temporary, for example the heartbreak of losing a boyfriend or whatever heartbreak you never thought you were though. this is why so hard to pin down Pacific criteria for this sort of thing.
Do chronically ill patients has the right to legally end their own life? My heart and mind always split into two directions when this question is posed to me. 2 years ago I woke up screaming out of my sleep from unspeakable pain in my left knee and hip. I’d screamed with the slightest movements. Orthopedic doctors cancel my appointment before I could even see them, because there was nothing they could do surgically for my leg. Some doctors had the audacity to say that because I was unable to walk my pain wasn’t a high priority compared to someone who could walk. There was a point during that time where I just wanted Jesus to come and take me from my misery. My knee and hip made a weird popping sound and I feel better, but I still have pain from time to time. What do you do when doctors and physical therapist don’t want to work with you because you are non-ambulatory? What if there’s no cure ? To be honest I’ve had this pain throughout my life because of surgeries of the past. This last time was the worst, I didn’t think I was going to survive it. That pain seeped into my brain and change my Outlook on my life. A big part of me says that only God has the right to end life. The other part of me says I am a hypocritical jackass for judging somebody for not wanting to live through unspeakable agonizing pain.