What I’ve come to learn is that is small victories. Life is better when you compete against yourself, instead of others.
Well I have done something I never thought I would do, I bought me an iPhone. I got to say I like that you could take a car without having to unlock your phone. I love that you can store your passwords. The fingerprint scanner is difficult at times, but it’s nice when I can get it to work.
Do chronically ill patients has the right to legally end their own life? My heart and mind always split into two directions when this question is posed to me. 2 years ago I woke up screaming out of my sleep from unspeakable pain in my left knee and hip. I’d screamed with the slightest movements. Orthopedic doctors cancel my appointment before I could even see them, because there was nothing they could do surgically for my leg. Some doctors had the audacity to say that because I was unable to walk my pain wasn’t a high priority compared to someone who could walk. There was a point during that time where I just wanted Jesus to come and take me from my misery. My knee and hip made a weird popping sound and I feel better, but I still have pain from time to time. What do you do when doctors and physical therapist don’t want to work with you because you are non-ambulatory? What if there’s no cure ? To be honest I’ve had this pain throughout my life because of surgeries of the past. This last time was the worst, I didn’t think I was going to survive it. That pain seeped into my brain and change my Outlook on my life. A big part of me says that only God has the right to end life. The other part of me says I am a hypocritical jackass for judging somebody for not wanting to live through unspeakable agonizing pain.
Yesterday I went to the pharmacy to get some body wash and a prescription refilled and the lady in the next line paid for my stuff. The crazy part was that I had to borrow money just to get those two things and here I didn’t even need to. May God repay her act of kindness in her time of need.
When your back against the wall,
When you feel like you have nothing at all,
Instead of reaching for that bottle,
When you are down and out
Instead of cursing his name in vein,
His son paid the cost,
Your sin can be forgiven,
He handcrafted you,
He delivered you,
He renewed you,
He sacrificed for you,
You’re his child,
You’re made out of love,
He is your heavenly father,
Remember what God did impossible today.
Depression is nothing more than the enemy trying to steal you’re light and connection to God. The devil wants to where you down like a deer; he wants to where you down before he goes in for The Kill. The Devil wants to fill your brain constant negativity, so he can kill your spirit. That’s why the Devil put these negative thoughts on a constant loop.
My children would rather listen R&B song,
That perverts my bible verse,
They cannot sit in a pew,
To give me what I’m due,
They think I ask too much, because I ask them to be true
Like I got nothing better to do,
So I grant every whim,
Forgive every sin,
Then watch you do in again,
Can’t pay my tides,
But I’m suppose to forgive your lies,
And all your crimes,
You give the enemy a foothold,
You been told not to,
But you think he cool,
He is never there for you,
He has done horrible things to you,
I’m the one who created you.
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