I just bought some bondage rope to make my call Bell long enough to reach new bed placement. That’s what I call gimp hack ingenuity at its finest. Bondage rope is soft, long and durable.
I feel accomplished because today I was able to feed myself. It has been a few years since I was able to feed myself. I think it was fitting it was pizza.
I love American Ninja Warrior and watching every season. I’ve been watching American Ninja Warrior, I feel like I can complete any exercise Stephanie throws at me.
I want to get t-shirts made up next week and I want to submit my book to bookbaby publishing, so I can get it professionally edited and maybe a book cover done. Maybe they can help me with a marketing strategy. I would like to get some t-shirts made for gimphack.
Do you like the red?
I still feel this insurmountable amount loneliness. I wouldn’t say that is just part of my depression, but I’ve been feeling this way my entire life. I can be in a room full of people and still feel alone. Maybe I’m just meant to walk this world alone. I want to feel like this life is a gift, but what kind of gift makes you feel like crap all the time? I spend most of my time hiding the way I truly feel. I feel like I am living a dishonest life.
Stephanie killed me in the best possible way. Tried battle ropes for the first time. I did not lift them very high, but the fact that I was able to with them at all was amazing.
I lost 4 more pounds, which puts me around 116 lb. I went to the Erie rib Fest, so I probably gained those 4 pounds back, but I’m not going to beat myself up about it. I feel like I slim down a lot and one binge day does not define me as a failure.
I have to admit that they have been times in my life where the emotional pain was as bad as the physical pain. sometimes I feel totally isolated from the rest of Society, because of my disability. I mean they have been times in my life where I was not invited to something, because it would be too complicated to get me there or have me there. who’s to say this physical pain is more valid than emotional pain? what kind of measurements can we use to measure someone’s pain? on the flip side some emotional pain is only temporary, for example the heartbreak of losing a boyfriend or whatever heartbreak you never thought you were though. this is why so hard to pin down Pacific criteria for this sort of thing.